Alot has happened since we last met, where do I start? Oh well, I am a single mom now, well kinda, for the next three months while my hubby is off training. Him leaving was really hard, I did most of my crying while him & Kai were asleep, it’s only been two days and I already miss him, even though he still manages to have tasks for me to complete all the way from Georgia, I jokingly call him the human checklist….I guess its all part of his charm.
So far so good, the girls are allot of help, well mostly Sofia, don’t know what I would do without her, the twins are usually doing their own thing and I understand. How on earth did I do it alone with 3 toddlers….well, I have no answer for that one, I guess I just did it, because there was no other way.
Kai is walking now….almost full time. The other day when I picked him up at daycare he walked up to me with his hands up, wow, that totally made my day! He’s getting big so fast…where has time gone?
And…..drum roll please, I have achieved my weight loss goal and have lost a total of …one more drum role please…..59 pounds! I can say, without one doubt in my mind, that I couldn’t have done it without Weight Watchers. It is hands down, the best diet program out there.
That’s all for now folks…..stay tuned
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
When it hurts too much to talk about….what does one do?
Being on my own for so many years, with no family besides my girls, and no one to talk to about the things that hurt or worried me, I developed a defense mechanism. Somewhere along the line, I just stopped talking about the things that hurt me the most; instead I just absorbed then, and filed them someplace in the back of my brain. No time to sit and cry, no ones shoulder to lean on, just me & my girls, so I would just dust myself on and keep moving. The question is, is this healthy? I literally have to be bursting at the seams before verbalizing it, and still, its only maybe.
Maybe I learned this behavior from my grandmother, the strongest woman I have ever met and my role model. I mean really, she went though hell, from an abusive childhood, to marrying into one of the richest families in her city, to losing all their money and being reduced to selling all her furniture, to working in a factory when she used to have maids, to having a mentally ill daughter, to caring for her husband that died of cancer, and still, only shed one single tear at his burial, because she had to be strong…..strong for everyone.
Maybe it’s the mother in me that has to be strong for everyone, protect them? Or maybe it’s the stories my mother would tell me about my father being such a proud man, how he would always say “It doesn’t matter if you are starving, put on your best suit and never let the world see that you are suffering”.
Whatever it is, sometimes I feel as though it has aged me, not externally, but internally, does that make any sense?
Did I really learn this behavior, or am I genetically predisposed?
Whatever is it, it sucks, sucks bad.
Maybe I learned this behavior from my grandmother, the strongest woman I have ever met and my role model. I mean really, she went though hell, from an abusive childhood, to marrying into one of the richest families in her city, to losing all their money and being reduced to selling all her furniture, to working in a factory when she used to have maids, to having a mentally ill daughter, to caring for her husband that died of cancer, and still, only shed one single tear at his burial, because she had to be strong…..strong for everyone.
Maybe it’s the mother in me that has to be strong for everyone, protect them? Or maybe it’s the stories my mother would tell me about my father being such a proud man, how he would always say “It doesn’t matter if you are starving, put on your best suit and never let the world see that you are suffering”.
Whatever it is, sometimes I feel as though it has aged me, not externally, but internally, does that make any sense?
Did I really learn this behavior, or am I genetically predisposed?
Whatever is it, it sucks, sucks bad.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Ike Ike Go Away!
I hate hurricanes! I know what your thinking, well duh Sherlock, who loves them?
Ike is way to close, and you might as well paint a bull’s-eye on Miami. This morning’s weather said that forecasters are predicting that if it does hit South Florida, it will hit as a Category 4 storm! Great, so now I get to sit and worry, will it blow my house away? How long will we be without power?
Everyone in Miami is glued to the tube today, we should know what the deal is by this evening…and then, the craziness begins, up the shutters go, run to the gas station a fill up all the cars and buy gas for the generator, run to the supermarket and buy water, canned foods and batteries, bring in all the lawn furniture and tie-down everything else, scrub the house, find and put all your important papers in zip-lock bags, buy a bottle of booze to calm my damn nerves during the storm and go to the bank and withdraw money, not exactly in that order, but you catch my drift.
Why on earth did I move here, I should have stayed my butt in New York, oh I know for the beautiful weather that makes my hair frizzy and for the beaches that I have only been to about five times in just under three years. I’ll take a Blizzard over a hurricane any day, I can tan in the salon and can I please have my frizz-free hair back....... please?
Next advisory, when I have more stuff to beef about……
Ike is way to close, and you might as well paint a bull’s-eye on Miami. This morning’s weather said that forecasters are predicting that if it does hit South Florida, it will hit as a Category 4 storm! Great, so now I get to sit and worry, will it blow my house away? How long will we be without power?
Everyone in Miami is glued to the tube today, we should know what the deal is by this evening…and then, the craziness begins, up the shutters go, run to the gas station a fill up all the cars and buy gas for the generator, run to the supermarket and buy water, canned foods and batteries, bring in all the lawn furniture and tie-down everything else, scrub the house, find and put all your important papers in zip-lock bags, buy a bottle of booze to calm my damn nerves during the storm and go to the bank and withdraw money, not exactly in that order, but you catch my drift.
Why on earth did I move here, I should have stayed my butt in New York, oh I know for the beautiful weather that makes my hair frizzy and for the beaches that I have only been to about five times in just under three years. I’ll take a Blizzard over a hurricane any day, I can tan in the salon and can I please have my frizz-free hair back....... please?
Next advisory, when I have more stuff to beef about……
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Who failed Kindergarten?
Why can’t anyone play nice? You know people, news flash, we are all entitled to our own opinion. I support Obama 100%, I think he is an amazing man that, when elected, can give Washington, a well-needed “make-over”. Who ever is elected to office, well, lets just say that I wouldn’t want to trade places with them……they have a serious amount of crap to clean-up, and no matter how well of a job they do, I’m pretty sure he’ll have to pick up the slack for decisions our current president made while in office.
You know what I don’t get, why the smear tactics? Why not focus on the issues at hand? Jeeze, we have enough of them, why waste time? I admire Obama’s camp for not pulling Palin’s card, pul-lease, lord knows that would have been tooo easy, like taking candy from a child…..but instead, they took the high road, and that my friend is commendable at the very least.
Although I will not be voting for McCain this election, I feel no need to bash him, actually, I happen to think he is a good opponent, and I also happen to agree with some of his views, I know, shocking!
I find that allot if people bash Obama for no apparent reason….I mean really people, its okay not to like him, its also okay not to vote for him, after all, that’s your decision…….but cant we just play nice, you should hear the things I have heard people say around the office, nonchalantly, or the chain emails I have received from co-workers……why? Could it be a fear of change? the possibility of having a president that isn’t 100% white? Kinda like Joe Lewis vs. Rocky Marciano, please tell me that in 2008 this is not the reason, because if that is the case, that’s just plain pathetic.
I've said it before and i'll say it again, If Bush did one positive thing while in office, it was to show young American Voters that their vote makes a difference. I guarantee that the turn out on Election Day will be unprecedented....and that in itself is awesome
So if you really support your canidate, stop singing it, just bring it to the polls, nuff said?!
Well that’s my $0.02
You know what I don’t get, why the smear tactics? Why not focus on the issues at hand? Jeeze, we have enough of them, why waste time? I admire Obama’s camp for not pulling Palin’s card, pul-lease, lord knows that would have been tooo easy, like taking candy from a child…..but instead, they took the high road, and that my friend is commendable at the very least.
Although I will not be voting for McCain this election, I feel no need to bash him, actually, I happen to think he is a good opponent, and I also happen to agree with some of his views, I know, shocking!
I find that allot if people bash Obama for no apparent reason….I mean really people, its okay not to like him, its also okay not to vote for him, after all, that’s your decision…….but cant we just play nice, you should hear the things I have heard people say around the office, nonchalantly, or the chain emails I have received from co-workers……why? Could it be a fear of change? the possibility of having a president that isn’t 100% white? Kinda like Joe Lewis vs. Rocky Marciano, please tell me that in 2008 this is not the reason, because if that is the case, that’s just plain pathetic.
I've said it before and i'll say it again, If Bush did one positive thing while in office, it was to show young American Voters that their vote makes a difference. I guarantee that the turn out on Election Day will be unprecedented....and that in itself is awesome
So if you really support your canidate, stop singing it, just bring it to the polls, nuff said?!
Well that’s my $0.02
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